Addicted to Glamour:

just letting the world know that i made the next musical theater bfa cut.
the program started with over 150 students and now i am in the top 18.
i guess i don't suck. woot.

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Becky's dead. i know i haven't updated in a while i just thought i owed that to everyone who reads.

My best friend is fucking dead.

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.
Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly.

Post twice if you'd like. (or more!)
and make sure to link to this entry in your journal, too, so everyone can participate if they'd like to. :3

just do it.trust me.

As you know i recently started making my entries "friends only".
The only problem is that i don't know who half the people on my friends list are.
if you read: please leave a comment so i don't delete you.
I just wana try to downsize a little bit for privacy reasons.

how do i make my journal freinds only?
i can't seem to figure it out.

I got the job at e-street!

woot.

halloween was silly.
can't wait for friday.


Come see the play this thursday, friday or saturday. 7:00

I have play practice everyday for the next week or so and then we open. I'm very excited. I love theater.

I got anonymous comment on my last entry. that hasn't happened in forever. Damn. you guys should go back to my previous entry just to look at it. Pointless yet anonymous...Hmm i wonder who my new spell checking nemesis is.

Uhh school dance was last night. I "served my country". It was pretty fun and the new dj really mixed it up. There was all different types of music.

Sexy cop costumes aren't even flattering. I know a sexy girl when i see them, but sexy cop costumes..not so sexy. Halloween costumes kinda piss me off in that way. You would think they would be sexy, considering your not wearing much, but they really are not flattering at all. I wish the girls at my school would realize that.

I still have no idea what is going on for halloween. Any parties anyone. Oh well, east county here i come. and i need a costume too. Lets see... should i be the sexy cop, the sexy nurse, or the sexy Disney character.

so one of the guys from fiday, christian, asked becky for my number. She advised me not to give it to him. i trust her on that one. although it was fun. He has a lovely body but he is also kinda an e-tard.

the guy in my lapidary group who keeps hitting on me, yeah, i found out tonight that he is 40. He kept aking me to go get high with him. and keeps trying to befriend me through gifts. He gradjuated from SDA beofre it what SDA. Before all my teachers gradjuated. He likes to show me his tattoos. he could be my father.

I don't get it, i guess crazy guys must love me. Fuck.

Wake up guys of my own age who have kindergarden-ish crushes on me. Before you know it i could be swooped up in the arms of some crazy drug-addict i met at a party or a man covered in tatoos 3 times my age. But you know i won't lower my standrads.

On another note school is freakin intense. I'm very confused as to what i need to do before the end of the quarter.

I hope Becky stops acting like everythings akward, because it not.

After a brief interview with several people who have been in long lasting sexual relationships i have come to the conclusions that boys really don't give a shit if you come or not.

yeah, the next person i'm with better care about what it's like for me or i might have to wear a shirt about it on freedom of speech day.

I finaly have licence plates on my car.
I did it today, and got it washed and finaly got some flowers for my vase.
My car looks so adroible i might vomit.

Wow, what a weekend.

Friday:
saw the sandlot at school. went to the beach. went to spain. went to gina's house. rad.

Saturday:
went to a no on prop 85 rally. Had a lot of fun. One prolifer protester showed up dressed as a doctor. He through plastic fetuses at us. Then he called me a nazi. I went to hand out flyers at target. I recived much joy when a woman shoved the paper back in my face and called me a baby killer. I plan to hand out many more flyers. I heart controversy.
when handing out flyers, people resond in 3 ways:
-ignore me
-look confused and the mutter "no thanks"
-call me a baby killing libral
Number 3 in the most fun.
Oh wait, Then there are the librals who yell at me thinking that i am a pro life-er. then when they figure out that they are confued they apalogize a lot.
Oh the good times in front of target.
Then i met up with Alisa and Skyler.
We went to spain.
Oh deary me, skyler's first time :0.
I heart curopting mormons.

Sunday:
Drove up to O-Cide to meet Becky. Hung out. Listerein.
Then pampered my car.
Now i'm here.

Everything is fairly wonerful right now.
there did end up being some tears shed over the weekend but i could see that coming from a mile away.
My dad is so up and down.
He is also so much like me. we both cry for no reason. we look a lot alike. our minds work alike. we both have the toe. (ask me sometimes and i'll show it to you) :)
Even though i'm a pain in the ass aparently i must be worth it.

I'v been having a lot of trouble with someting. I've been really bitter.
It's always been really hard for me to hold grudges. and then i let people back into my life after they have wounded me, just to wound me again. But, recently i've been so hurt that i can't seem to get really genuinely horible feelings out of my head. I've never been so angrey with someone before and it's almost scareing me.
I have a lot to be angrey for but I CAN"T HOLD GRUDGES.
Now though, i don't know how to deal with this first grudge.
I think it's actualy physicly manfesting.
I got a Cyst for the first time in my life.
I have an infection in my insides. I'm taking anti-biotics but i truly feel that it won't heal the alement.

I've never known such a bitch before. Your ruining my life. So many good things are happening to me, and this taint won't alow me to enjoy them. Your a vampire. sucking whatever you need out of everyone around you just before you leave them to die.
Mabey if i write it down then i can alivate the pain.

You'll probably end up reading it anyways. Fucking lurker. Concidering that you must invade every aspect of my life, so why not my diary.

Dear Freind,
I'm up in frisco hotel hoping with my family because the house flooded.
I saw Carlos Mencia live last night. and a bunch of other really cool opening comedians.
I met Carlos who was kinda douch-ish. meh. and i got Boobie nuzzled by a dwarf. ok, let me explain.
He was one of the opening comidians, Brad Williams, and i got a hug at the end of the show. His face hight equals my boob hight, you do the math. My famiily will never let me forget it. lol
If you watch the show, you know who he is.
anyways, off to another hotel.
love always,
Rachel

yeah, my body is shutting down. I keep getting these crazy muccle spazums in random parts of my body. Cramps everywhere. I'm sore all over. digestive system not functioning.

On anther note i Aced my government test today.
what i'd like to hear from mother: "good Job"
what i'm stuck with: "that's amazing because i don't think i've ever seen you study"
uhh.. fuck you.

oh and nikki is no help.

I went in for an interview at michel's today. after 2 mins she realized i wwas under 18 and just pretty much said sorry but yeah, get out.

In desperation i went looking for help wanted signs and every single one won't hire me because i'm 17.

then i come home to empty boxes of chinese food and a punsihment for not wanting a job bad enough.

I pretty much just want to punch her in the fucking face.

What the hell. I am so happy yet everything seemes to be crumbling at the moment.

Yes, BAMF.

Happy jew year!

Survices were good this morning. I hate jewish mothers trying to hook me up with random jewish college boys. I like jewish college boys but the whole jewish mother thing just makes me feel like i owe someone a dowry. lol

I have a samba rehursal today for battle of the bands. yay! I heart alex G. I bet i'll be the only girl in the group. Things could be worse :) lol.

Oh! and i'm going to inferno tonight, yes i know it's going to be lame. My first club experence. haha.
Alisa is writing an article on it for the newspaper so we are going for resurch... yeah.

everything in my life is amazing.

except my father and this stupid fucking 3 way expander that my dentist randomly gave to me and i don't think i need it and solid food now scares me and ice cream is soothing and so is soup so fuck the ortho in the ass hole. oh an i sound like a jackass when i talk. It's pretty funny.

thank you amazing people. and thank you ass holes. becuase without the ass holes i would have no basis for comparison.

I think i must have gotten a lot hotter over the summer because WAy more people flirt with me now, it's very refreshing.
Thank you ugly people, for the basis of comparison as well.

My mother is obsesed with me finding a job.
I have applied at 5 places, spoken to 3 mangeners and brownnosed more then i'd like to admit..and that's only been in the past 2 days.
all she wants to talk about is me getting a job.
For and application i filled out yeasterday :"rachel how come your not fallowing up?!"

she always said my only job was school and that i wasn't alowed to work. now she says i have to work.

What the hell! It's not that i don't want to work. It's just that no one wants to hire a 17 year old wih no work experence and a busy shcedule.

I hate DR. Laura.

But other then that last night was really fun.
abrey, marlen, ellie, gina, brandon, ry ate yummy thi food and then met up with tons more people to watch black Dahlia. It blew my ass hole. I have never seen such a peice of crap before. I hope they were kidding. But being with everyone was really fun.

I had some tripped out dreams last night.

The read through went really well but i had to leave pretty early because i had my job interview. It lasted a good 6 mins. but i guess they were a good 6 mins? hmm. yes. oh well, i don't know. They are a little relicutant to hire me while i'm still in the play. But i need the job now because i need to quit this one to get my job at the boba place in a few months.
well anyways, then i went home and got ready. Then i went for my sr. pics. and i took them and the lady was nice. and my boobs look to big in all the pics. and it makes me look really big. so i'm going to probably get my boobies cropped out of the pictures. or just cropped out in real life. :0...yeah, mabey not. but oh well. I'm shure there are some good ones in there. or at least i hope.
My mom decided that even though my 18th birthday is just around the corner that i have to still get a peice of paper signed by all my teachers saying that i did all my homework at the end of the week.
FUCKING STUPID.
yeah.
Excuse me while i got buy some cigarets, porn, a lottery ticket, vote..oh and wait. I have to get this paper singed by all me teachers first because my mommy dosen't trust me.